If I were to write a cheesy romance novel, I'd begin by saying the heroine is tired of loneliness instead of simply looking for love. Few people have experienced everlasting love, but everyone knows loneliness, and negative feelings just resonate more with us. Negativity was behind every conflict in human history, it was the humiliation of the 1918 Armistice that drove Hitler to conquer and accepted the surrender of France at the exact same spot, in the same railway car in which the 1918 Armistice was signed to avenge the defeat of World War I. I don't think there are many examples of wars waged with the same sort of fervor out of love, most likely, we are motivated by Pearl Harbor and September 11.
Even before the tiger mom brouhaha hit the Internet, I knew we were all raised by tiger parents, it was much later that I realized I had also inherited the same critical attitude towards others, especially to my own children. Bert, in our culture, we accept that parents are blameless as long as we believe the motive is benevolent, it was in that mindset that we got so emotional on your birthday. In my own mind, my negativity is justified by my fear for you not getting a fair shake in life. If I had introspected, I would've realized one has to find his own way to harness the negative energy, I would've reacted in a similar manner myself.
This little blog has been difficult for me to write, I abandoned it more than once and loped off all the defensive paragraphs, I belabored the wording and only managed to make it worse. Bert, look at the picture, other people may see a nice garden, but the gardener can see nothing but weeds and bugs, thanks for reminding me to enjoy the garden for a change.
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